apparently i'm still asleep

it appears as though i have found myself off the market.

after a melodramatic shitstorm of a sunday night/monday i find myself not only with a boyfriend...but with a boyfriend who manages to find LILIES at eleven pm.  could it be?  has the universe finally tired of her games, and will i finally have something GOOD with a man?  all signs point to yes, which scares the piss out of me.  i will fall for this boy.  hard.  i've already stepped off the edge.  

i like it.  this is a feeling of falling without impending doom.  

*swoon*