apparently i'm still asleep

it appears as though i have found myself off the market.

after a melodramatic shitstorm of a sunday night/monday i find myself not only with a boyfriend...but with a boyfriend who manages to find LILIES at eleven pm.  could it be?  has the universe finally tired of her games, and will i finally have something GOOD with a man?  all signs point to yes, which scares the piss out of me.  i will fall for this boy.  hard.  i've already stepped off the edge.  

i like it.  this is a feeling of falling without impending doom.  

*swoon*

don't wake me up.

it appears that i have found myself in someone else's life. here's why:

Friday night:

• picture message with "can't wait for tomorrow night"
• various text messages

Saturday night:

• he brings TWO bottles of wine to go with the dinner that i made for us
• box of wood for the fireplace
• cuddling in front of the fireplace
• did i mention the fireplace?

Sunday day:

• shooting guns
• extremely critical friend grants approval of the boy
• handholding on the drive home. (handholding?!?)

Sunday night:

• i am convinced to watch football without much of a fight
• cuddling during football
• bed before halftime

Monday night:

• he makes ME dinner (wtf?!?)
• more cuddling

Tuesday morning

• have i yet mentioned all of the cuddling?
• he MAKES ME TEA while i get ready for work.

listen readers...i think i'm in trouble with this one, and i haven't even mentioned the dirty stuff. discuss.

new beginnings

take THAT livejournal! no more blog with a past! there's something disconcerting about knowing that your readers, if bored and stalkerish enough, can continue to click previous until they find the insipid verbiage that belonged to a nineteen year old you. i can't promise that i'll post with any regularity, as i haven't been in the habit for quite some time. i'm going to try though...there's a feeling of change in the air, and i'd like a record of it.